12th Night of Enlistment

Dreamt of this big beautiful almost mansion-like building
it belonged to me
but sadly,
I found out awhile after that the house was a gift from my parents
they were (in my dreams) resting in a better place.
I swear I woke up at 02:30+ am with tears

My life in NS,
its just getting harder to wake up
because get up each morning
more tired than the morning before

I believe everyone here cant wait for the 17th.
Because we miss our lovedones
maybe not so much our individual homes now
we are adapting to life in Tekong
The "dog" life
we are complaining now, but we do believe its gonna benefit us
and make us fitter and a more independent person

Enlistment Day

Monday, 30th July 2012
I officially swore to protect my loved ones and my country
I'm now training to be a soldier.

Jaguar coy
Pl 3 Sect 4
J3413

Thursday, 2nd August 2012
I wore the SAF  Army smart 4
Felt really proud.

Friday, 3rd August 2012
I officially fought for and swore to be responsible for my own rifle.

Saturday, 4th August 2012
One of the recruits that sabotaged my own Platoon mate
Almost got myself confined
Damn.

12 more days to first book-out

4th Ramadhan
Alhamdulillah
Done for all 5 days (terawih)
I teared suddenly right after prayers on the 5th night
Obviously, I didn't wanna show it
But something just got to me.

Had a dream of her
The first is always the hardest to forget huh
Truth is I do miss you
But you've moved on

12 more days before Rec Azri

Iv become what I never thought I be
The only reason I end this
Is because she deserve better
The timing is just wrong for me now